251010 Out of the blues

I was wondering why I entered Nursing until this year. I felt so…hmm…I don’t know how to explain.

I just felt sad when my friends will graduate before me when I’m suppose to gradate with them. I suppose to be year 2 by now.

Hmm….but….i never regret going to TP. Haha. Ya, I’m still comparing TP with NYP. And I love TP more. Ya, I’m still comparing NR01 with K2. And I love K2 more. Hmm…of course I like my NYP friends. Just that overall I still like K2 more. Haha.

The knowledge gain in TP is definitely useful, although it is not totally the same as what I learn in nursing. Haha. But…somehow it is related.

Okay. I don’t know why I’m talking about this.

Anyway I miss K2.

I swear I will never ask anything anymore.

30.09.10 Results part 2

Yup, I shall continue to blog about the results.

Arh....Yuan Shan's GPA is 4.0! So irritating. Haha.

Anyway I wish that my class is like Yuan Shan's class. Yuan Shan's classmates will always say out their GPA on their own without asking. (Reason: They strive to be better.) Most of their classmates know each other GPA and people who entered Director's list. I wish my class has the same culture as them, but sadly not.

Well, I guess there is a few reasons. The lower ones didn't want to say because they are not proud of it. The higher ones didn't want to say or ask because they don't want people to think that they very "hao lian". Or they simply not interested in other people results or don't want to compare or don't want to be competitive and so on. Haha. I don't know.

Well, I didn't want to say out because I don't want other people think that I am competitive. But I want to know their results! I want to know who entered the director's list so that I can aim for the GPA. Haha.Anyway I would ask my friends that I think they have high chance to enter the director's list

Ya I seriously regret that I didn't study hard. Haha. Now I'm aiming for 4.0! I'm aiming to get into the Director's list. Yuan Shan is my model! Haha. Yuan Shan is so irritating because he is smarter than me. Haha.

Okay whatever. Next semester I will study hard with my friends! Haha.

Oh, I found a way to help one of my friend to pull up her GPA.I should set a target for her. Haha.

Anyway I may change my blog URL soon. Haha.

PS: Yuan Shan's toilet bowl is so smelly!

28.09.10 Results

Some update for my results? I’m totally shocked. Although 3.59 isn’t a good score for me and I never enter director list, I’m still happy.

I got 1 dist, 4 A, 1 B+ and 1 C. I never expect I will get As actually, because I never study! I only study for the subject that I got for dist. Haha. Hmm…but I was actually quite upset that the C pulls my GPA down. Arh…but it is expected. Haha. So…yup. I shouldn’t be upset.

I shall work hard for next semester! I’m going to aim for 4!

I think people should stop reading my blog le. I don't think I will blog anymore.

Live Your Life To The Fullest

Hello!!!! Do you all miss me? Haha. I bet no one is reading my blog. Yes! One week holiday has passed! I’m glad that one semester is going to end because now more projects for the 5 weeks holiday! (after my exams)

Now I’m having my attachment is TTHS. For the first few days, I felt really useless, because I don’t know what to do! However, things get better and better. At least, now I can communicate with my patients freely! =D

Elderly people are so so so cute!!!! Arh…although some may be stubborn and don’t want to listen to us, they are still damn bloody cute!!!!! I love them so much. Hehe.

Anyway, on the first day I entered my cubicle, someone passed away during my shift. I’m amazed that I can actually be so neutral. I was not afraid of touching the body, I didn’t cry. I just take it normally, although I do feel something when I saw the patient’s family members.

By the way, I got scolding from one of the family members because I can’t answer his question clearly. I guess I was really insensitive. I didn’t know that the death time is so important to the family members.

The death of the patient actually reminds me of my uncle and grandpa death. When my uncle and grandpa past away, I didn’t ask anything, I just keep quiet and try to avoid having any eye contact because I didn’t want to let my emotions out. Of course, I did cry in the end. For this patient, I haven’t got to talk to her, she passed away. So maybe this is the reason why I didn't cry. Hmmm...anyway since I'm having my shift, I cna't let my emotions affect me too.

Anyway, I have learned a lot of things in the hospital and I learned from my mistake. I actually questioned on myself. Why I’m not able to answer the family’s members questions.
If I’m not wrong, when my uncle passed away, my aunty actually wants to confirm with the death time. Yuan Xin is not alert enough!

Come to think about it, death time is really important. When my uncle passed away, I was there with him, so I didn’t ask for the death time. For my grandpa, I was simply too sad to ask any questions.

Okay, I’m going off track. Anyway on Monday, our clinical in-charge will be going to assess us! I hope I can do well and passed this attachment with flying colours!

Oh, another thing, I won’t blog about everything because a lot of things are confidential!

PS: 3 weeks for attachment = no study week =( [3 exams after the 3 weeks holiday]
FYI: Only some nursing tutorial group has attachment *angry*

02.08.10 The Burden Going To Be Lighter As Time Passby

After Wednesday, I will be free. Through these projects, I know different kind of people.

What I’m going to say, not only base on the groups I work with, it include other groups.

Okay, this is describing the people I worked with in all projects including web design. What I see is: Most of the people like to copy and paste. Some of them like to find short cuts (Maybe they are lazy?) Some of them don’t know how to think.
From all these I can conclude that: They never put in their heart when they doing their work. They didn’t try their best to make the best out of it. They never put in effort.

Hmm…I shall give other better reasons why their work didn’t meet the expectations. Maybe they don’t understand the question. Maybe they don’t know how to make presentation.

I’m always the one who do the most in group project even doing simple stuff, because I want to make the best out of it. I don’t just stop, when I found something. I try to find something better. I do copy and paste sometimes, but I always try to link it to the project or use my own words. I always filter out unnecessary stuff.

The REAL reason why I always spend so much time doing the last job because I have to help them clear up their “mess”. Mess = things that still can improve. Okay, I can’t really blame them. I was the one that didn’t ask them to improvise it. And the reason I didn’t ask them to, is I don’t really trust them. Ya, I’m wrong to have this mindset. For this mindset, I would change for the next semester.

I think the only person that I trust is Clara, though she is blur at times, she always willing to learn.

For the web design (Theme: recipes) I worked with other group. I guess I still not use to working with them, so I still tend to do things by myself. I’m particularly fed up with one person, but I didn’t tell her as I don’t really know her. I changed all her things that she put into the web page, but at least two of her recipes still can be used.

Other group members, I’m fine with their work. I just don’t like that they copy and paste and didn’t find a better quality picture. Hmm…but I’m not angry with them.
G just never standardizes her work, but the picture is okay. R never standardizes her work too and her pictures are in poor quality, but at least I did saw her trying to find a better picture and I’m the one who told her, I would help her to find. K, she did great. Just that one of her picture is blur.

Hmmm…there is something bad about me when I’m doing projects. I always didn’t ask my group members for permission when I change their things! Okay, I don’t know why I didn’t consult them. Hmm…maybe I’m too full of myself that I think I don’t need to consult them because I think what I done is better than what they did before. Yuan Xin, bad habit! You are not always right! Arh…next time I must consult them!!! Yuan Xin! Communication is important!

Another thing, I have alot of things to blog about. Arh...but it is negative things. Things that makes me want to cut off from people =/

28.07.10

My piano teacher's child is able to walk already!
She is so so so~ adorable when she is walking!
She is so so so~ adorable when she wants her mum to let her in to the room.
She is so so so~ adorable when she holding her mum's leg because she thought that her mum going to leave.

Don't say I'm the best because I'm not perfect.
Don't say you love everything about me because there is no such nothing as I love all your flaws.

=(

Exhausted

I finally understand why I always dream in living in a farm that doesn't connect to the outside world. I’m exhausted living in the outside world.

I totally want to cut off from the outside world. I’m exhausted by socializing. I’m exhausted by politics.

If I have a choice, I will quit everything. Quit schooling. Quit socializing. And only have one thing in life.

Dream =)

Still remember I said about Anusha? Haha. Yup, she migrated to UK for 3 years and she came back to visit us. During the gathering Anusha actually told us about her stories there. Haha. She get robbed there on the 3rd month she was there! The burglar broke into their house and steals the car and other stuffs.

Anusha said that at the beginning she was really afraid. However, after her friends told her that it was really common there, Anusha started to get used to it. Haha. They only get robbed once before. So they are counted as lucky? Another thing, they have insurance for the car! Haha. O well, the burglar actually crash the car when they heard police coming. Haha. So they are able to get back and repair the car without paying anything.

She said that it is important to have burglar alarm and insurance there and never confront the robbers or burglars. Even the police warn them that the robbers (etcs.) might have weapons on them and so on. Criminal rate is high.

Anusha said that if the burglar alarm turns on, the police will arrive in 2 minutes. Haha. I’m actually shocked by it. I thought it will take like 5 to 10 minutes =.= haha.

Arh….it reminds me of wanting to live in other countries although Singapore is very safe compare to other countries.

Anyway place like this:

I want my house made of glass! Haha. It’s so nice if you are able to see the surroundings provided your house is surrounded by flowers and trees. Haha. course, there must be a curtain. Haha.

Hmm…but it will have green house effect in your house. Haha.


I want my house to be at the center of the field! Haha. It’s so different from the previous house. =.=


Balcony! Haha.


A garden behide the house?


And a lake beside it.



Or a pond?


Okay, I’m daydreaming again. Haha. These things won’t happen and if everything is mixed together, it will simply looks weird I guess. Haha. Whatever, it is just a dream. Haha.

I would either blog in the last week of July or first week of August.

I'm really busy these weeks weeks. I have alot of exams to study.

10.07.10 to 12.07.10

10.07.10 Saturday

I went to 4e1 gathering plus someone special! Anusha! Haha. She had migrated to UK since the starting of the year in Secondary 3. Now she is having her holiday so she came back to visit us!

I would blog more about it when I have more free time to blog.

11.07.10 Sunday

I went cycling with Stephie and her family at East Coast Park! I miss there! I miss beach! Haha. I haven't been going there since the last chalet. Haha. Anyway I still love beach as much as last time. Hehe.

I would blog more about the outing when I have more free time. (repeating =.=)

12.07.10 Monday

Idiot! Why octopus predict correctly!?!? Spain won =(
Actually I wanted Netherland to win because I want to go against Paul the octopus. =.=

Anyway Yuan Shan bet on Netherland even though he knows that most slightly Spain would win. Haha. Well, it is just for the fun of it. Haha. 不要经，破财挡灾！ Haha. Lame!

Oh ya, Rachel L (nursing classmates) won some money by betting on Spain. Haha.

I finally passed by Nasogastric tube feeding practical on the second attempt! I almost get full marks =/ Haiz….anyway on second attempt, they would get 80% of your marks. So…yup. My marks will still be low. Hehe. Plus plus I did badly for theory.

I need to study le! TATA~

It’s damn irritating that when you are already not in a good mood and someone still come to aggregate you more.

Is the person stupid or what? It is already very obvious that I’m not in a good mood and the person still use trigger words. Learn some communication skills la!